My world dressed itself in a new outfit yesterday! Bright, shiny, and fresh, and everything looks so different to me. All is not perfect, and right now thats OK.
I’m also aware that I want my world’s choice of attire to be of less consequence to my mood! I remember a friend once telling me that he wanted “to be independent of the good opinion of others”. It sounded so virtuous, like a worthy goal I should proudly want for myself. Not very achievable in the present, and worthy no less.
Today, it doesn’t seem quite so important for me to strive for the same thing. I’d like just a little more separation, perhaps; maybe I could wake up feeling good and the first hiccup could roll over me, and my day might go on happily. Instead, I feel just a little too permeable, – a tad too readily affected by the opinion of others. I’m working to learn to be a little more willow-like. To have the ability to bend with the wind, and come back to balance more readily. And most importantly, to show some kindness to myself when I don’t bounce back immediately.
Meanwhile, today I spent time with loved ones, and tonight with great friends, and I remember how much I’m loved and that my own opinions (good or bad), are valued. And thats feels great!
I might even be deserving of some of the compassion that I’m so willing to show to others. Who knew????
You are deserving of that compassion, of course. Be kind to yourself.
It can be good to set yourself challenges, but its best to feel good about yourself without having to succeed at anything. It’s natural to feel sensitive to the opinions of others. I always do, even when I don’t court them.
You’ve gone all quiet again, Can I. Please let us know how you’re doing.
I’m still here, and really appreciate your check-in, Drodbar. Been running an old tape in my head and need to rewire that thought. Thank you for the reminder.